It is Day 5 of NaNo and I have exactly... let me count here.. 3,102 words on a new project completed. Six hundred words a day on average. I need to do around 1800 to make it to 50k by the end of the month. This does not bode well.
In the past month, I have wrote less online, a lot less. I have delved deep into last years project and.. got lost. The goal was to have a working, finished copy for people to do a beta read. I have not even got as far as the better 1/2 alpha read. Heavy sigh...
My espectations are way beyond my means. I am kinda like that. I gave my self a year to have a finished novel and thought I would be shopping it around starting this month. It is not gonna happen. So I keep working on it. I will get there.
And that is my problem. I am stuck in that world and it is really hard to get out of it. I say this knowing full well that I have done just over a hundred freelance articles online. I have also produced about 300 blog posts in that time. I have published a few poems and even had a short story in an anthology. Behind the scenes, I have worked on countless poems and over a dozen short stories. I have even ventured into sheeple stories and stuff like that, stuff that is more non-fiction but still story like, i.e. the sheeple stories.
I have also worked on that blasted novel for many, many hours. To start a new novel project seems foolhardy at best, but that is what I am trying to do. Ambitous or insane, I dont know which, but there it is.
I guess I will go wherever the wind blows, see what I can see. Maybe I wont make it this year, but thats okay. I do write more, a lot more. Some of it even seems.. cool. Maybe thats the point, to just do it, worry about all the other stuff later. It will happen when it happens.
Until then.. keep on scribbling.